Honesty

Honeywine gave me an award! Wooohooo!!! That's 2, I am excited. I'm going to do my best to honor this award and be as honest as I can. Here goes...

The honorees of this award are to: A) first list 10 honest things about yourself - and make it interesting, even if you have to dig deep! B) pass the award on to 7 bloggers that you feel embody the spirit of the Honest Scrap.

Ten honest things about me:

1) Before I was pregnant with Zilla, my younger sister had an ectopic pregnancy and one of her tubes burst. She had her son by then, but her and her boyfriend of years wanted to have another. I told her that if she couldn't get pregnant again, I would carry her child for her. I didn't have to do that for her and she had her daughter 6 months before I had Zilla.

2) When I was 11 or 12, my best friend at the time was on vacation in California. I remember being so sad and lonely that she was gone. I was also confused by hormones, feelings, or whatever, that I asked my mom if I was lesbian because I "LOVED" Sam. My dear, sweet mother didn't bat an eye lash and said "I think you and Sam are just really close friends. No matter what happens in your life, you will be the best you, you can be and we will love you no matter what". Seriously? How great was her response! She didn't laugh at me, she didn't placate me or pat me on the head and dismiss me. She answered my question with love and understanding. Awesome!

3) I have a small box containing sympathy cards, pamphlets, and my eulogy from my mom's funeral. That box is in my linen closet because I can't have it in my room. I'm still to scared to look at it every day. Once a year is enough for me.

4) I know we made the right choice to get my tubes tied since I have problems getting/staying and being pregnant, but sometimes I wonder if we'd have more children if I didn't go bat shit crazy when I'm pregnant.

5) I'm not nearly sick as much as my friends and family think I am. I use it as an excuse when I'm sad or in a funk.

6) I've had my ipod for 2 years and I just put music on it on my own. Husband had taught/shown me how to do it many times, but I never paid attention. I thought it was going to be too difficult. I finally bit the bullet and did it on my own and it wasn't difficult at all! Silly me.

7) I haven't had a job in almost 3 years. The last job I had, I was "let go" because I wasn't picking up things fast enough. That was a big blow to my ego.

8) I sometimes wear my 11 year old's tops. They fit a lot better then mine do. They make my chest look nice, but don't hug my middle section.

9) I am willing to change my diet to better my health, but I will NOT give up coffee. No way, no how!

10) I will not exercise in front of others. I've never been to a gym for this reason. I'm perfectly happy going on jogs and exercising in my living room when NOBODY is home.

Whew that was difficult! Of course as I got to number 10, I found a few more, but I will maybe reveal those at another time. Then again, maybe not.

Now on to, the 7 bloggers I'm going to "tag"

1 Brandi from Dreaming of Baby... Girl, I just bet you have some juicy secrets, so spill em sista!

2 Stephanie from Loving Thee...And More. Stephanie just added me on Facebook and I'd love to get to know you better.

3 Celia from Breeder Beware...She helped me with my FIRST Christmas dinner. She gave me tips and I didn't mess up dinner! She's mentioned a few times the things she can cook and she makes me mouth water.

4 Mischef from My Neuroses... I've known her since high school and without her undying support and insight, I have no idea where I would be in my journey to acceptance.

5 Coffeegrl from Okaasan Mommy and More...I just read her blog for the first time the other day. Of course, I just LOVE her name, but I'd also love to get to know more about her.

6 Liv from The Life of Liv...I also, just came upon her blog. Her last post made me all mushy and girly inside because her husband is so damn sweet!

7 Third Time's A Charm...I came upon her blog via ICLW and I really enjoyed reading her words. The first post I read of hers was about a co-worker's kindness. I love those stories. Reminds me that even though I feel like everyone is out to "bring me down", there is still A LOT of kindness in our lives.

OK ladies, get to it! I can't wait to read your honesty.