Jan 14, 2010

Will That Be All?

Musings of A Beautiful Mess
**update** MRI shows the tendon is where it's suppose to be. I have an appointment with the surgeon on Tuesday to go over the results. The radiologist could only tell me that it was not that tendon. Not sure if that's good news or bad. I would think fixing the knuckle is easier then fixing a tendon, but I really have no idea. Feel free to correct me if I'm wrong. I've refrained from doing any Google searches, so far.

Dirty took Nae to the ER last night/ this morning and I followed shortly thereafter. She does NOT have strep but DOES have mono :o( Her throat is not closing up because it isn't her tonsils that are swollen like we had thought, it's her glands. Apparently we caught it fairly early and she doesn't have an enlarged spleen or liver, but we do need to watch out for those.

We got home at 5 this morning and she is doing OK. Not great but OK. We do know why the antibiotics weren't working now! I'm a little bit frustrated/confused that her doctor didn't test for mono after looking at her throat.Wouldn't he have been able to see that it wasn't her tonsils and it was her glands that were causing her so much discomfort? Any thoughts? Thanks for all the love and well wishes! I can't even tell you how much they mean to me!

Soooo....went to the surgeon this morning. I am not even going to pretend I was a big strong girl, because I SO was NOT! I was quiet all morning long and just wanted to do anything BUT go to that appointment. I didn't anyone to go with me because I knew I was going to lose my cool at some point and freak FUCK! Actually, that's not true, I did want Dirty to go with me, but Nae is STILL! REALLY! sick and I didn't feel comfortable leaving her by herself or with anyone but him or myself. I had lil sis drop me off and I walked into that office trying not to let anyone see how terrified I was. I almost pulled it off, too.

Surgeon checks out my finger, very gently. Good news is the tendon is where it should be. Bad news is I dislocated my knuckle...(sorry Quiet Dreams, I know you're cringing) When I dislocated the knuckle it went back in, BUT it went it twisted. Surgeon said think of it like a knee cap. EEEWWWW *shudder* that's gross! Then he asked me the most beautiful question ever! "How about we numb everything up and I can try to see if I can fix it?" If I could have gotten away with kissing him, I would have! He did that and worked it pretty good, still nothing. He wants me to go for an MRI in the morning to make sure that's what he thinks it is. The only way to fix it? Oh that would be surgery *sigh*

When he and the nurse said that, I couldn't hold back the tears any longer. I was biting my lip, taking deep breaths, all of it and still tears were escaping. I'm not scared of the surgery itself, but I am worried about the recovery time and the cost. This surgery is EASILY going to cost me $10,000. Ummmm I don't have $10,000 laying around.

I left the office holding backs sobs searching for a bathroom. When I found one, I raced in there, locked the door, dropped to my knees and lost IT! I was sobbing pathetically into my lap. I didn't know what else to do. Once I gained some sort of composure, splashed my face with cold water and did my best to not start crying again so I could leave the bathroom. As soon as I got myself together, I went down to the hospital's billing office.

Good thing is, they have a program for uninsured ER visits and I qualify. All of these doctor visits are all considered emergency because of that visit. Hopefully I'll be able to only pay a small percentage of the surgery.

Now we just need to figure out what's wrong with Nae. Dirty just took her to the ER because her breathing didn't sound good when I checked on her. I think the swelling in her throat is getting so bad, it's closing up. I'm not going to think of worst case scenarios as I wait for a phone call from him. Please send Nae lots of good thoughts!

25 friends have commented:

My name is Andy. on January 15, 2010 at 3:20 AM said...

Oh Hun! {{{{{HUGS}}}}} I wish I could magically fix it all for you!!

Hang in there.

Jenn on January 15, 2010 at 4:34 AM said...

Oh sweetie,

So sorry you and Nae are in sucksville right now!

Praying heartily for you both!


Kimbosue on January 15, 2010 at 5:20 AM said...

Prayers for Nae..

Crossing my fingers that he fixed it in the office and no surgery is needed.


Dolli-Mama on January 15, 2010 at 6:18 AM said...

I don't have $10,000 laying around either. Wouldn't that be nice? "Hold on, let me go get my $10,000. I left it on the table."

I hope everything works out, I'm sure it will. Sending prayers for you and Nae your way.

Jaymee on January 15, 2010 at 7:23 AM said...

oh, i just want to come over and give you a great big hug!!!

hope nae is on the mend.

sending you all healing and strength.

kate on January 15, 2010 at 7:41 AM said...

Man! That is ROUGH. I really hope that you are able to get this taken care of with as little physical or financial pain as possible. You poor thing! I'll be thinking of you.

And poor Nae. I hope she starts to get over this respiratory crud soon.

Feel better, both of you!

Marie on January 15, 2010 at 7:48 AM said...

I am sending you BOTH good thoughts!

Kristin on January 15, 2010 at 7:49 AM said...

Praying for your little girl's recovery and hoping you only have a tiny medical bill for you.

Quiet Dreams on January 15, 2010 at 8:50 AM said...

So, so, so sorry!

Yes, I was cringing, but mostly out of sympathy pain.

My poor Dani.

Lavender Luz on January 15, 2010 at 10:51 AM said...

What Andy said!

Wishing your household a return to wellness really soon.

Sunny on January 15, 2010 at 11:21 AM said...

*winces* OUCH!! I hope the surgeon gives you good news and this can all be fixed as quickly and painlessly (and cheaply!) as possible.

I'm glad they found out what is up with Nae. Mono isn't good, but it'ss always better to know the enemy. Sending wishes for a speedy recovery.

sunflowerchilde on January 15, 2010 at 1:23 PM said...

OMG, you are going through so much! I really hope that Nae is ok and that if you have surgery, your costs will be low.

JamieD on January 15, 2010 at 7:58 PM said...

Oh, Dani!! I am so sorry for all you are going through. SUCKS!!!!

Prayers for both you and Nae . . . any the magic money fairy . . .

Actually, if you see her, could you send her my way?

Mugsy on January 15, 2010 at 9:27 PM said...

I have been thinking about you and Nae and hoping you feel better!

Celia on January 16, 2010 at 5:18 AM said...

Oh babydoll, just one of those things is more than enough. I am so sorry.

Baby Smiling In Back Seat on January 17, 2010 at 3:57 AM said...

Sending healthy thoughts to you and to Nae.

Coffeegrl on January 18, 2010 at 3:57 AM said...

I can't believe you're still walking around. I'd be in a heap crying. From the pain, the expense, the frustration....what a crappy week. I'm hoping that Nae's starting to feel better now that they know it's mono (right?!).

And I'll be thinking good thoughts for you!

Fertility Chick on January 18, 2010 at 10:38 AM said...

What a time you have had! Thinking about you and poor Nae! Hope that you both are on the mend real soon. HUGS!

IF Optimist, then... on January 18, 2010 at 11:24 AM said...

I'm so sorry that you are both sick and in pain. Hoping that you are both on the mend very very soon. Take care.

tomi on January 18, 2010 at 9:44 PM said...

Sending Nae happy thoughts and get well wishes!

The medical system in the US can be very mind-boggling (for someone outside)


Busted Tube on January 19, 2010 at 6:18 PM said...

Oh gosh, when it rains it pours! Poor you! Poor Nae! I hope you get some good help for your hand, that sounds so painful!

I had mono during my freshman year of college and it SUCKED, I hope Nae escapes the worst of it and you can help her stay comfy!
Good luck!

Serendipity on January 20, 2010 at 4:20 AM said...

holy crap you are going through the wringer atm, I hope both you and Nae are feeling much better.

Sending loads of positive healing lucky vibes your way.

Anonymous said...

Oh, you guys need a lot of help! Mono, what I remember about that Nae needs lots of rest, lots of rest. It can last a long time, is there a secondary infection causing the throat to swell up so badly?

I found this information;

"In severe cases, corticosteroids may be used to reduce swelling of the throat, tonsils, or spleen. This type of steroid use may also decrease the overall length and severity of illness from infectious mono."

Your finger needs to be fixed, it is hard not to think of the money issues. maybe you can get help with that hospital bill. But your health matters most.

Is Nae contagious? You don’t need mono ! I hope you guys all the best, and I will say a prayer for you.

Gerardine Baugh

JJ on January 21, 2010 at 8:01 AM said...

Im very belated in wishing you well! Hope all turns around soon! BIG HUGS

Anonymous said...

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Gerardine Baugh

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