It's no secret it's been a rough year for me. I did a lot of things this year I had to do, but never wanted to do. Now that the year is coming to a close, I'm finding that I'm being kind of a whinny bitch. I don't want to fall into a hole of depression, but at the same time I don't want to tramp all these emotions down. So my solution is to look at what I am grateful for. I do have a lot and I don't always have to dwell on the negative. Focusing on the positive doesn't mean I am not paying attention to my sadness, it just means that I am looking at it from a different point of view. So here I go...
I am grateful for my family. Even though times aren't as easy as I thought they were going to be, they are looking up.
I am grateful that Zilla is FINALLY catching up with the other children in his class.
I am grateful that Nae is getting almost all A's in her classes. Only one B.
I am grateful that my sister is living with my dad and will continue to do so.
I am grateful that I can look down at my hands and remember my mom without crying.
I am grateful for our new house.
I am grateful that I have the opportunity to go for walks around my house and look at all the beautiful tress and scenery around the pathways.
I am grateful that my children have insurance and can go to the doctor if/when needed.
I am grateful that I got to spend some time with my best friend last week.
I am grateful that I am able to email one of my best friends to plan an outing in the coming weeks.
I am grateful for this blog and all the amazing woman I have met through having this blog and making it "open".
And finally, I am grateful for myself. I can do what I put my mind to. No matter how small it may look to someone else. It matters to me and that is important!