I have my last final of the term at 3:00 today...EEK! Totally freaking out! I really have NO idea why I'm freaking out, either. I have an A in the class and even if I don't get an A on this final, I'll still get an A...lets just calm down a touch!
Last night in psychology Peaches was acting odd. Since our falling out (her acting like a spoiled brat and moving out without a thank you or many words spoken between us) we've been cordial to each other. We had two classes together this term and will have two classes together next term. It was awkward to be in the same room with her AND sitting together (creatures of habit) but we made it work. There was always small talk like "how's your hand doing?" (her) and "is your brother still in jail from his DUI?" (me) Last night was different. We were chatting and joking with each other just like we use to. There was even a point where she put her arms on my shoulders and gave me a hug...ODD! We made plans to go out tonight with some people from class and I'm just not sure about it. I want to go out and celebrate that this term is OVER(!) but I don't know if I'm ready to go out with HER. Dirty thinks I should go out and have a good time but just keep in mind that Peaches is Peaches and she'll never change.
I would like to be friends again, but I also know that we'll never be close like we use to be. Since the day she moved out and the distance between us has grown, I'm happier. I'm happier without all of her drama in my life. I'm more at peace without her poison in my life..BUT...dammit if I don't miss the good times.
I think I will go out and CELEBRATE and if I'm not having fun, I'll just come home. I also need to keep in mind that no matter how she acts NOW, she'll always be who she is. 12 years of friendship has shown me that she won't change.
Here's to the end of a very stressful term! Goodbye winter term! I can't say it was much fun, but I did learn some things. Hello spring term, lets have some FUN!