Nov 2, 2009

Happy Birthday, Mom.

Musings of A Beautiful Mess
My little sister, my beautiful mom, handsome dad, and myself at my older sister's wedding. That was such a fun day and a great memory.

My parents at one of their MANY Halloween parties. Yes, that's my mom grabbing my dad's breast...lol!

She would be almost 70 today. I would probably have sent her flowers or we would be going up there this coming weekend. Instead, I'll bake a cake or something a sing her a little song. I knew this day was coming up, how could I forget? And I just kind of pushed it to the back of my mind, thinking I'll deal with it later. Well, it's later. Here I am sorting through these damn emotions again *sigh* It is better, so that's a plus, right? I'm not scared of falling into the Pit of Despair....improvement my friends. No matter how small these steps are, they are still steps.

As much as I would like to crawl into my bed and just be with my sad thoughts today, I know that isn't best for me. So I'll bake her cake today, shed a tear and move on with my day. Not because I have to, but because I know she would want me to. I know she doesn't want me stewing in my grief, plus it isn't healthy for me. I'll sing her a song and then blow out the candles, wishing I wasn't doing it alone, but knowing she is here still.


Mom,
I love and miss you more then I can ever put into words. I miss calling you just because. I miss hearing your voice. I miss smelling your "mom scent". But most of all I miss hearing "I love you". I hope you're celebrating with your mom and brother today. Know even though you're missed terribly, you're never forgotten.
~DC

29 friends have commented:

Anonymous said...

This is such a beautiful post. I know your sweet, beautiful mother is watching over you today and every day, and I know she is so proud of what she sees.

Mugsy on November 2, 2009 at 11:06 AM said...

Ah...thanks for sharing (and getting me all teary at work!). Happy Birthday to a woman who shaped such a beautiful friend for so many of us.

Suzy, Not a Fertile Myrtle on November 2, 2009 at 11:16 AM said...

So beautiful. I know your Mom is so proud of you. Thanks for giving us an insight to a wonderful woman.

Sending you hugs today!

xoxoxo

Dora on November 2, 2009 at 11:31 AM said...

Lovely post. Your mom raised an awesome daughter.

(Sorry I've been such a terrible commenter lately.)

Caitlin on November 2, 2009 at 11:35 AM said...

What a beautiful way to celebrate her life...wishing you tons of strength today.

((hugs))

Quiet Dreams on November 2, 2009 at 11:37 AM said...

Happy Birthday to your mom.
(((hugs)))

Jamie on November 2, 2009 at 11:49 AM said...

What a sweet tribute to your Mom. I know she is so very proud of you.

Andy on November 2, 2009 at 12:35 PM said...

What a beautiful tribute!

Sunny on November 2, 2009 at 12:54 PM said...

Happy Birthday to your Mom.

(((((hugs)))))

Flying Monkeys on November 2, 2009 at 2:31 PM said...

That Halloween picture is the BEST! I bet she was a riot!

Happy Birthday to your momma! ((hugs))

Anonymous said...

Wonderful pictures and wonderful words for your mum.

Thinking about you as you remember your lovely mother on this special day.

Rach on November 2, 2009 at 3:41 PM said...

Oh honey such a beautiful heartfelt post.

She will be with you enjoying that cake....


Much love my friend

xxxxx

Kristin on November 2, 2009 at 4:29 PM said...

Happy Birthday to your mom and many {{{{{hugs}}}}} to you my friend.

Stacie on November 2, 2009 at 5:48 PM said...

Happy Birthday to your mom. Sending love and hugs your way as you remember your mom on this special day.

Anonymous said...

Enjoy your cake. Your mom would be proud. Hugs

Lollipop Goldstein on November 2, 2009 at 7:43 PM said...

Abiding with you, sweetie. Happy birthday to your mum.

Anonymous said...

It's a testament to your mum that you're such a loving daughter even now.

Anonymous said...

It's a testament to your mum that you're such a loving daughter even now.

JJ on November 2, 2009 at 9:11 PM said...

Big, big hugs...

Lori Lavender Luz on November 3, 2009 at 9:20 AM said...

Your mom is beautiful. I can see where you get it.

Thinking of you today as you blow out the candles.

Nel on November 3, 2009 at 10:18 AM said...

Such cute and funny pictures! Beautiful post. Your mom did such a good job with you :)

Tina on November 3, 2009 at 11:55 AM said...

I know she's looking down and hearing your birthday wishes. I am sending you lots of strength today.

Belle on November 3, 2009 at 12:33 PM said...

This made me teary. Hope your day is full of strength and happy memories!

natalie on November 4, 2009 at 10:55 AM said...

Beautiful post. She is watching over you, and knows how much you miss her. And I love those pictures :)

Anonymous said...

Thanks for sharing the beautiful and funny sides of your mom. I feel the same way about my grandma. Hugs!

KimboSue on November 5, 2009 at 8:15 AM said...

Happy Birthday Mom! You made a great daughter!

Raelene on November 5, 2009 at 12:23 PM said...

Your words hit very close to home for me. My mom had a mom smell to...when I was young I would call it "Mommy smell" turns out it was white musk...now I wear it all the time. And you are right, your mom is beautiful

tomi on November 8, 2009 at 12:39 AM said...

A little late but *HUGS*

Alana on November 9, 2009 at 2:04 PM said...

What great pictures!

Hugs to you!

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