Aug 20, 2008

Here I am...

Musings of A Beautiful Mess
Here I am at the end *hopefully* of a very emotional week. I am still a bit sad and things make me cry easily. Not just a bit weepy, but actually crying. I find myself missing my mom, my dad, my lil sis, my best friend, and my husband.

Obviously, my mom, I will miss forever. My dad lives about 3 hours away and even though I talk to him at least once a day, I still miss him. I miss mother henning him when he visits. I miss sitting on the couch and watching T.V. I just miss my daddy.

My little is isn't so "little". She is only one year and 4 days younger then I and hates it when I call her my "little sister". Yet, that's what I call her and she will live with it. I miss being able to see her everyday. I missing doing the silly stuff we do as sisters.

My best friend moved to Washington a few months ago and I miss her terribly! After 11 years of being best friends and sharing EVERYTHING, she is so far away. Almost 4 of those 11 years, we lived together. We had a lot of ups and some downs, but in the end living with my best friend was something I will NEVER regret. I miss the moments of needing to get out of the house and going for a walk and talking about nothing and everything. I miss how she always gets me and I always get her. She's happy and I am happy for her, but my heart aches just a little bit because I miss that woman!

Every day my husband leaves for work at 1:00. It's been this way for a little over a year, yet every day at 1:00 I get a little sad. I walk him out to the car, give him a hug and see him off. It sounds a bit dramatic, it isn't, but I still miss him. I talk to him though out the day, but I am so glad when it's 11:00 and he's home.

It's been a very emotional week for me, for many different reason. Times are changing and I am learning that no matter what happens in our future, I will have memories and these memories are more precious to me then anything else.

8 friends have commented:

Kristin on August 20, 2008 at 2:28 PM said...

One of my friends made me a pillow that says...

"Its not how deep the see,
Its not how wide the sky,
Its how sweet the time
From hello to goodbye."

Unfortunately, the sweeter the time, the more we miss them when they are gone.

Jaymee on August 21, 2008 at 8:03 AM said...

there is nothing wrong with you. every day that i drop my husband off at work i feel sad. it is part of loving them.

(ICLW)

Jill on August 21, 2008 at 12:04 PM said...

Thanks for the juju. Sounds like you could use some, too. Missing someone may be one of the worst feelings in the world. I can relate.

Marie on August 21, 2008 at 12:42 PM said...

My best friend moved to Colorado and I miss her sooooo much. We were online talking the other night and we were telling people how close we were and someone suggested we were hetero life mates. You know I like that. She will always be someone that is a part of my life no matter what.

Also I always get down when hubs leaves. He works nights and it sucks.

The Muser (aka Beautiful Mama) on August 21, 2008 at 1:38 PM said...

Oh, grief and loneliness are so hard. Peace to you this week...

flickrlovr on August 21, 2008 at 6:16 PM said...

(ICLW; returning the comment you left on my blog)

I've been having a tough time with feeling similarly. It's hard when things change. Things that I think shouldn't upset me or make me sad have been this week. Not sure what's up, but it's no fun. I feel your pain.

flickrlovr on August 21, 2008 at 6:17 PM said...

And by the way-I'm a huge Jason Mraz fan ;)

In Due Time on August 21, 2008 at 9:17 PM said...

Coming over from ICLW...


(((Hugs))) I feel sad kissing my DSO Bye, too.

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