Mar 19, 2009

Awards and The Moment of Truth.

Musings of A Beautiful Mess

I got an award, two times! This award was given to me from Danifred at Sippy Cups Are Not For Starbucks AND SS from Still No Explanation. These two wonderful, talented, and beautiful women gave me this award a few weeks ago and I'm just now getting to them. Sorry ladies!

Here's what to do....
I am passing on this award to 8 blogs that I love..."These blogs are exceedingly charming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when the ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated. Please give more attention to these writers. Deliver this award to eight bloggers who must choose eight more and include this cleverly-written text into the body of their award!"

1) Heather at Geek by Marriage. Heather, you rock! Your blog is fun to read, your funny, AND your daughter is going through the same thing mine is. I think it's time for a trip to Mexico at a swim up bar...what ya think? ;o)

2) Sunflowerchilde at A Little Hope. Sunflowerchilde, you're a very kind woman. It's been fun to get to know you through your blog and our emails. I'm so glad to have found you.

3) JamieD at The Therapist is In. No she isn't THE therapist, but is using her blog as one, like the rest of us are. Jamie. I've appreciated reading your words, especially the GREAT news you got yesterday! I'm traveling this road with you and couldn't be more excited for you.

4) Jenn from The Infertile Sushi-loving Princess. Jenn, I'm new to your blog and your comment on my last entry is so sweet. I can't even thank you enough. P.S. I LOVE the name of your blog. I *big puffy* heart sushi...mmmmmm. I'm looking forward to reading more of your blog.

5) Marie from Where is that special water? Marie, I can't even begin to tell you how excited I am for you! I am so happy to share int his journey with you. From killing the mouse to worrying about EVERYTHING, I'm right there with ya.

6) Tracy at TSM. Tracy, we LIVE DOWN THE STREET FROM EACH OTHER!!!! How crazy is THAT?! I'm glad to have met you and can't wait to get to know you EVEN better!

7) Deathstar at A Woman My Age. You have been a wonderful supporter of mine, always a kind word. The shoes on your last post had me dreaming and looking at my feet all night long. Ahhhh beautiful, sexy shoes!

8) Eve at Infertility Rocks!. Eve, I know you had a bit of a rough day yesterday and I wish I could take your pain away, so all you'd ever know is joy. Sadly, that's impossible, but what I can offer you is a snarky remark and an alliance when you're feeling clomissy. I got your back, sista!

Thank you to everyone who commented on my last post. It has been a rough week or so, but I think I'm slowing coming out of it. All thanks to all of you for guiding me to the surface. I have no idea where I would be without you and I don't want to know!

O.K. so my moment of truth, so to speak came on Monday. We had a meeting with Zilla's teacher about his writing. Which, he IS doing! He is actually writing a little story. This has got me completely floored! When he started school, he barely knew how to write his name. NOW, he's writing a story about how he gets picked up from school. It's pretty cool. I am a proud mama.

As we were talking to her, Zilla mentioned that he was going to his Nana and Papa's for spring break. Side note: she knows about my mom's passing. I mentioned to her, in case Zilla ever mentioned anything about talking to his Oma "in the clouds". I feel it is important for his teachers to know about it.

Anyway, she looks at my husband and myself and says "Oh is he going to your parents *me* or yours *husband's*? I got the tunnel vision right away and broke out into a sweat all over my body. I took a deep breath and Husband said "he's going to mine". WHEW saved by the Husband. I'm not sure if I could have spoke at that moment in time. After what felt like hours, but was actually minutes, I was OK. I felt the sadness in my heart, but I didn't break down in a puddle of tears. I know that these situations will help me in my journey to acceptance and that they are good for me, I just wish I could be prepared for them a bit more. I'll handle them better each time they happen and the fact that I didn't cry or get lost in a funk was HUGE!

It's getting better and that's all I can ask for. It just shows how far I've come and go far I will continue to go.


9 friends have commented:

Deathstar on March 19, 2009 at 9:42 AM said...

Thank you so much, dear heart, for the kind mention and award. I think everyone should get an award for something every single day - and it should come in the mail - like an old fashioned surprise!

Actually, I was reading this book about taking away someone's pain - you breathe it in and breathe out love and healing. So it can be done!

I'm so sorry you lost your mum - there are no words are there? You're doing well, you honour her every time you brush your Zilla's hair, with every kiss and every cuddle, you are so strong!

Jim and Jenn on March 19, 2009 at 10:38 AM said...

You are such an incredible doll for sending out that award to me! Lil Ole' me? Me who was reveling in her pity pot yesterday...LOL?
I will try to pass it on!!!

Just getting your note on my blog was enough to make me smile! Thanks for that and for putting my name out there in the blogosphere. If I get to meet even one other FANTASTIC lady like yourself as a result....I will be blessed!

I can just tell that you are an AWESOME mom! Zilla is incredibly lucky to have you!

Heather and Jase on March 19, 2009 at 11:25 AM said...

You wanna see a donkey show while we're in Mexico? I know a guy who knows a guy.

I say we send our daughters to boot camp until they are about 20.

Thanks for the award! I'm so happy someone finds me funny other than myself.

Go Zilla!

*HUGE HUGS*

Tiffanie on March 19, 2009 at 11:49 AM said...

hi! just checking in. and, i'm going to puerto vallarta for a week in july - just saying:)

Kristin on March 20, 2009 at 10:54 AM said...

You definitely deserve that award. You are such a sweetie.

JamieD on March 20, 2009 at 1:19 PM said...

Awww . . . thank you so much!! I appreciate your writing and your honesty as well. Blogging is so very theraputic!!

You are right - you will handle them better each and every time. Will it get easier? Probably not. But you are such a strong and courageous woman - your family is lucky to have you!

rocket.queen. on March 21, 2009 at 8:38 PM said...
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Marie on March 23, 2009 at 7:37 AM said...

Thank you. You are a wonderful friend. I have been extremely lazy in the blogging department but even when I am not posting and commenting and am reading and usually laughing my ass off at your posts.

sunflowerchilde on March 23, 2009 at 7:45 AM said...

Thank you so much, I am so touched. I will probably be like you and it will be a while before I get around to doing anything about it. But thanks for thinking of me!

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