Happy Birthday, Mom!

She would be 66 today. We would have either sent her flowers or picked up some on the way over to see her and my dad. We would have most likely done it on Saturday, as they would probably still be living in Vancouver and that's a 2 hour drive BOTH ways for us.

Since she isn't here to celebrate this day with us, I am going to do my best to celebrate it for her. The past 2 years I have done something to celebrate the day, rather then crying all day. The first year Nae and I got a package of Hostess cupcakes, put a candle on the top and sang happy birthday to her. After we ate the yummy chocolate cupcake, we shared stories about Oma that made us happy. It was a moment with tears and laughter. It was sweet.

Last year, I didn't do the cupcake thing, but I did take a walk and wish her a happy birthday. I Think Nae and I had a candy bar, chocolate of course. Last year was tough for me. A lot tougher then the first year.

This year, I'm not sure what I will be doing. I've had a few moments of silent tears. That's frustrating for me. I don't want this to be a day of sadness, I want it to be a happy day. A day of celebration, but I know that if I hold it in, it will be worse.

So I think I will go to coffee with my friend and just do my best to celebrate this day!

Happy birthday mom, I love you and miss you more then I can ever say!