May 18, 2009
I took that picture today after Zilla got home from school. Poor little guy is one tired kid! He should be tired because we did his homework today and he READ a story with little help from me!
When he started school, he was behind..by A LOT! I tried to do preschool with him, but he was not having it. And I really didn't want to push him. I didn't want him to end up hating school before he even started. So, we did fun "kid stuff".
He is our last. he is the one we thought we were never going to have. He is the one we waited 5 years to get pregnant and FINALLY have. This kid saved my life when my mom died. If it wasn't for him, I would've gone to bed. If I didn't have a demanding toddler to take care of, there would be no way I would have made it through each day. Yes, there was Nae, but she was at school all day long. I could have easily gotten her off to school and gone back to bed if it wasn't for Zilla. He and I had days where we would stay in our jammies all day long and eat popcorn and lunch in my bed. But we also had days where we would get on our grubbies and walk in the rain to find worms. We would make mud pies and play with his cars and "guys" in the mud pit in the back yard. Those years were a lot of fun. Just my Zilla and I.
When he started school, they put him in the "all day" program because he didn't know his sounds. He knew a few letters, but didn't know ANY sounds. Poor kid. I felt horrible about that. I still do, but I did my best to let it go and concentrate on getting him caught up. There is no way I would trade one day of our five years together, if it meant he would be "caught up" because nobody else can give him what I gave him. I know this, but I still felt bad that he had to work harder because I didn't teach him his ABC's.
But today? All of our hard work has FINALLY paid off! He read a short story with very little help from me and NO tears from him! He struggled with it the first few times, but after that, he did amazing! I am so proud of him, I could cry! There were many times when he would get so frustrated and cry and I would feel like such an asshole because I didn't teach him before he went to school. But those times are in the past. No more mommy guilt today, Zilla did IT!
Way to go Zilla. We are SO proud of you! Keep up the good work!
**don't mind the ink on his legs. We had a slumber party this weekend and all of Nae's friends used him as a practice canvas. With Sharpies, no less :-|**