May 22, 2009
I've been singing *off key* the song "Anniversary" by Tony Toni Tone since yesterday. BUT because I'm SUCH a nerd I sing "blogoversary" instead of "anniversary". Yes, I did date myself and admitted that I use to listen to that group.
So a year ago today I started this little blog. I came over from Yahoo360 and while I enjoyed it, it had it's bugs. So I came here to Blogger and am having a great time!
I didn't intend on this blog to be all about grief and my mom dying, but that's what ended up happening. I really thought I had already done that. I thought I had done that over there. I thought this was going to be my fresh start. A place where I didn't have to look at the entry where we found out my mom had cancer. I thought I wouldn't have to see the entry about her funeral. I figured it was a step in the healing process. Like I said, a fresh start.
I went to my therapist and even "graduated" from being a mess to being able to go out in public! I was very excited that day. The time when I was blogging over at Yahoo was my dark period. I was full of sadness, I might have even been full of anger. I'm not really sure as I haven't been over there to read anything in a long time. I'm not sure it would be a good thing to go over there and be over come with all of those emotions all over again. I think it would just put me back in that place. A place, I feel, I've walked far from. Walked, not ran from.
Today, I am grateful I made that change. If I hadn't made that change, I wouldn't have the support I have now. If I hadn't of made that change, I would be the person I am right now. I wouldn't be as healed as I am right now. I've met so many people who have picked me up or cheered with me. I wish I had the mental capacity to name them all, but I don't. I'm sure you know who you are, though. At least, I hope you know how you are!
It's been a year. This year has had it's ups and downs, tears and laughter, but they have been with friends. That has what made this past year amazing and memorable. There isn't one part of this year, I would want to change if it meant I wouldn't have any one of you in my life.
Here's to another year of blogging and MORE! *raises glass*
Thank you for making memories with me.