Space cadet

I'm a space cadet and I apologize for it. I can't help it, though. My mind runs eleventy billion miles and hour. Even though it's racing and on all the time, I seem to forget to reveal important or useful information. Which is exactly what I did yesterday, when I posted about Husband and his job.

So I'll fill ya'll in...
We live in a small town in Oregon. A farming town, which I loathe and detest with ALL of my being. I don't do "country". I grew up in a city and I enjoyed it. I like walking and I like walking down to the market to get a gallon of milk, or walking down to a strip mall to poke around. I am not use to seeing a tractor rumble down the street. Even though we have lived here for almost 4 years, I am still not use to it. When do see one, I get all excited. My friends, of course, make fun of me for this. But, this is where we are, the schools are amazing and we have a lot of connections here and I don't see us moving any time soon. So I'll suffer with the fact, that the mall is AT LEAST 35 miles away and not 10 *cry*

Husband works about an hour away from where we live. He drives an hour to get to work and an hour to get home every day and it sucks! We have an SUV and the stupid thing is a gas guzzler and I don't love it. I am grateful that we have a nice reliable mode of transportation, but the damn thing costs us SO much money a month that I'm ready to take a hit on it. Right now, the thought of giving it back to the loan company instead of making that monthly payment is what my dreams are made of. Not the point of my story here, sorry...

We got word a few months ago that his contract was ending with the company he's worked for, for 7 years. We had 2 options. Option 1 was to apply with the new company, possibly get a raise, possibly not, possibly get a better shift, possibly not, possibly get better insurance, possibly not OR take the severance package and unemployment. If we opted for the severance package, we'd get 2 checks within 2 weeks of each other AND a BIG check in a few weeks time, PLUS unemployment starting on week 2 or 3 after being laid off. We'd have some breathing room with the big check in and we'd be able to move. If we opted for him to take the position with the new company, we'd be in the exact same place we are. Paying for the truck every month PLUS gas. The of course if he stays on swing shift, he wouldn't be able to see the children. It wasn't a hard decision for us to make.

We went with being laid off and the severance package. With this option, it'll give us some time to figure out where we want to go from here. Do I want to go back to school? Does he? We get to spend more time with just each other and as a family. He'll be here for bedtimes and I'm not doing dinner, homework AND dinner every night by myself.

So him getting laid off, is feeling like a new beginning for us. Plus, we get to MOVE!!!! We'll still be in the same town, but we will not be living with my brother in law and his 3 children. Which 4 years ago, wasn't a bad choice to make. It was a great choice. I don't regret it, but since him and his wife have gotten a divorce, things have been less then stable. His children have been acting out and me being the only "mother figure" gets a lot of the stresses of raising children that aren't mine put on me, but no back up from the parent. Very, very frustrating for me. Especially because I love those kids as if they were my own.

So, yes in about less then a week, Husband will be officially unemployed and I will be going crazy! He will be bugging me to no end. I have been assured that he will not leave me alone. I am unsure what this entails, but I am scared.

It'll be nice, I really can't wait. I am excited to get everything in order and have him around and we can go to lunch and do more things as a family. It'll be a nice change.....