Apr 21, 2009

Happy ICLW!

Musings of A Beautiful Mess
Welcome everyone! It's my favorite time of the month, YAY!!!

Here's a bit of a rundown of me and what my blog is about....

I am a wife to my *generally* wonderful husband for almost 16 years. The first two years of our relationship were apart, as he was in the Navy. It sucked and I'm glad that time in our life is over. Although if he were to do that again, I'd support him 100% We have two children. Nae will be 12 on Sunday *cry*. Nae is our first and very mature child. She's is an amazing student and a great big sister to her brother Zilla. Zilla is 5 and just started kindergarten this year. He started out a bit behind, but it catching up quite well.

It took us 5 years with 2 miscarriages to conceive Zilla. I was never diagnosed with infertility, but SOMETHING went on there. I'm pretty sure it has to do with pelvic inflammatory disease and all the after affects, I/we dealt with when Nae was 1 1/2 years old.

When we were pregnant with Zilla, we decided to get my tubes "tied". I don't do pregnancy well and we felt this was the right decision for our family. I don't regret our decision, but I do, on occasion, think about the "what ifs".

I also talk about my mom, who passed away a little over 3 years ago due to lung cancer. I ran from grief and the pain of losing her up until January when I made myself face the facts of reality. Which totally suck, by the way. My mom was one of my best friends and when she died, a piece of me died with her that day in January. I still struggle with it, but it's getting easier to allow myself to feel the pain of her being gone. I've realize that the pain will never go away, but I will learn to cope with it as the days, week, and years go by.

Family and friends are very important to me. I'll do what I can when I can to help anyone. I love this blogging community, I am in. I wouldn't trade it for the world. I've met many beautiful people through this blog. Without them, I can't even begin to imagine where I would be.

I hope everyone has fun finding new blogs and getting to know each other.
~Beautiful Mess

17 friends have commented:

Heather and Jase on April 21, 2009 at 9:22 AM said...

Hi, long time follower, first time commenter.


sunflowerchilde on April 21, 2009 at 10:08 AM said...

Thanks for the recap again =) It's good to hear that you are coping with your mother's death - I'm sure that even though it gets easier to handle, you'll always feel her absence in your life.

Erin on April 21, 2009 at 10:15 AM said...

Hi I'm new from ICLW. I love that you whored up Easter. I'm so sorry about your mom. I don't know what I would do if I lost mine. I lost my daughter age 3 in February and my mom has saved me.
Also, I love that your family and friends can't read your blog. I used to have that so I could write whatever, but since Charlotte died everyone knows about it so I think twice about what I put on there. Bummer.

Kristin on April 21, 2009 at 10:38 AM said...

Great recap hon! Happy ICLW!

SS on April 21, 2009 at 11:38 AM said...

Happy ICLW

Jennifer on April 21, 2009 at 11:50 AM said...

Cracking up over the *generally* wonderful husband comment!!

Thanks for sharing your story. I am so sorry about your mom.

Jenn on April 21, 2009 at 12:48 PM said...

Happy ICLW....as always LOVE LOVE LOVE your blog - it was so nice to find out that I am not the only wild and crazy gal out there!!!

GO CAVS.....heheheehehe!!!!!


nh on April 21, 2009 at 1:14 PM said...

If I say - I don't think I am, does that help? I can't think where the clues fit particularly, and I'm certainly no videomaker.

But thank you for thinking of me, and for reading the whole thing! Good luck on your hunt.

~*~Bodhi~*~ on April 21, 2009 at 2:14 PM said...

Hey gorgeous...

I never knew your Mum passed over from lung Cancer, I lost my Dad the same way the day after my birthday last year.


Barefoot on April 21, 2009 at 3:03 PM said...

Happy ICLW! And thanks for bringing your foot fetish over to my blog. ;)

Reading about your mom made me tear up -- my mom is my oldest, best friend and we've had some health scares along the way. It's so wonderful that you remember her on your blog.

Anyway, looking forward to following along!

Heather and Jase on April 21, 2009 at 4:59 PM said...

Ok I finally gave in and joined up.



Stacie on April 21, 2009 at 5:48 PM said...

Hey! I have a "generally wonderful" husband, too. Last night though, he definitely was NOT!

Thanks for the reminder about ICLW. I need to do a recap, too! :-)

Anonymous said...

Happy ICLW .. been following for a little while now :)

sara on April 22, 2009 at 7:47 AM said...

Happy ICLW! Basically to answer your question. You didn't miss anything. Sorrogacy in MI is illegal. Therefore we can't call what we're doing that. So nothing has changed, but everything as the public knows it has, LOL!

sara on April 22, 2009 at 7:47 AM said...

oppsss mean surrogacy not sorrogacy!

Gina on April 22, 2009 at 8:28 AM said...

Happy ICLW!

The Captain's Wife on April 22, 2009 at 6:37 PM said...

Great intro.

I am curious about your children's names. How did you decide on such unique names? And how do you pronounce Nae? Is is like Nii (long i sound?) or Nee (long e sound?)


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