Happy ICLW!

Welcome everyone! It's my favorite time of the month, YAY!!!

Here's a bit of a rundown of me and what my blog is about....

I am a wife to my *generally* wonderful husband for almost 16 years. The first two years of our relationship were apart, as he was in the Navy. It sucked and I'm glad that time in our life is over. Although if he were to do that again, I'd support him 100% We have two children. Nae will be 12 on Sunday *cry*. Nae is our first and very mature child. She's is an amazing student and a great big sister to her brother Zilla. Zilla is 5 and just started kindergarten this year. He started out a bit behind, but it catching up quite well.

It took us 5 years with 2 miscarriages to conceive Zilla. I was never diagnosed with infertility, but SOMETHING went on there. I'm pretty sure it has to do with pelvic inflammatory disease and all the after affects, I/we dealt with when Nae was 1 1/2 years old.

When we were pregnant with Zilla, we decided to get my tubes "tied". I don't do pregnancy well and we felt this was the right decision for our family. I don't regret our decision, but I do, on occasion, think about the "what ifs".

I also talk about my mom, who passed away a little over 3 years ago due to lung cancer. I ran from grief and the pain of losing her up until January when I made myself face the facts of reality. Which totally suck, by the way. My mom was one of my best friends and when she died, a piece of me died with her that day in January. I still struggle with it, but it's getting easier to allow myself to feel the pain of her being gone. I've realize that the pain will never go away, but I will learn to cope with it as the days, week, and years go by.

Family and friends are very important to me. I'll do what I can when I can to help anyone. I love this blogging community, I am in. I wouldn't trade it for the world. I've met many beautiful people through this blog. Without them, I can't even begin to imagine where I would be.

I hope everyone has fun finding new blogs and getting to know each other.
~Beautiful Mess